Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts
Well, it's been a little while since my last post.
My undergraduate thesis acted like 3 months baby girl to me. You know what I mean.
But thank God, now I've got another 3 months baby girl. Her name is Unemployed.
So this little baby girl keeps whining all the time forcing myself to look for her father. Yeah. What a life.

Let's straight to the point.

For those who have met me in real life, I am sure you do see the condition of one of my front tooth. For those who have met me and have talked to my father at least two times, I am sure you do know how I always feel regarding to that front tooth condition. For those who are luckier, I am sure you know how that front tooth ended up that way.

Yesterday, a company called me for an interview. SO today, I decided to go to the dentist. I don't have enough money to choose the best choice the doctor gave. I could only choose the not-so-good-but-good choice which allows me to survive in this "new return" for max. 2 months. But that's okay. I am so sure I can choose the best choice very soon.

see the strange thing?


You probably think: What for?. You probably feel: are you serious? mek sak mene tok a mentalmu?

I don't give a fuck of what you think and/or feel.


"Hahaha untune pothol on" (that's how my friends expressed their happiness a day after I got that fucking accident)
"untumu gak iso biasa ae a yo?"
"mesem.o ae sas, ojok ngguyu. Ayuan mesem awakmu. Temenan a"

Those are only 3 out of hundred statements I always get in 22 years.

You probably think, "ya udah sih ngapain juga ditanggepin/makan ati" or "halah kan mek guyon"

Oh lol! Hey dude, talk is cheap.

Whatever you think of me, I can only say, you know nothing about me. I am so sure you can't be as strong as I am. You can't even be as steady as I am. Let me be arrogant. Because you will never understand me. You know nothing about what I feel.

When you claim that you do understand me, you're gonna comprehend when I say "I do this, because I want to get back to my real self. I am so tired of being this fake person"

When you read this post, you are a family of mine. You are a close friend of mine. You are the best friend of mine.

When you consider yourself as my truly family and/or best friend and/or close friend, you're gonna understand..that I am apparently that exhausted, fragile...and terrible.
Several parts of Verses in a very nice German song I do want to show you:


Sind wir Freunde oder sind wir mehr. 
Ich ertrinke in dir. 
Ich veränder den Regen, ich teil das Meer. 
Nur gib mir ein Zeichen, weil ich mich verlier.
Ich such in deinen Augen, ist da noch mehr. 
Du zeigst mir nichts und das viel zu sehr. 
Ich steh neben mir und die Zeit sie fliegt. 
Sind wir Freunde  
Sind wir mehr 
Ich veränder den Regen 
So gib mir ein Zeichen, weil ich mich verlier. 
Weil ich dich Verlier.
(Song by: 3A-Sind Wir Freunde) 

Was Passiert? Wo bist du? Was machst du? 
Du schreibst mich nicht seit einem Monat Emails...
Aber mach dir keine Sorge. Ich warte nur auf dich :)
  
A simple quote taken from a novel (but I forget its title and writer, I am so sorry hehe)


"Engkaulah kilatan cahaya yang menyapulenyapkan segala jejak dan bayang. Engkaulah bentangan sinar yang menjembatani jurang antar duka mencinta dan bahagia terdera. Engkaulah terang yang kudekap dalam gelap saat Bumi bersiap diri untuk selamanya lelap.
Um 20.05 Uhr
29 minuten 44 sekunden
Heute.


Thank you for artistically sculpturing the cute Schmerz on sein Schmerz :)


*FunFact: Ich war siebzehn minuten freezed (weil konnte ich meinen Körper nicht bewegen) after habe ich dein physical mail gelesen. Paralyzed. Siebzig minuten! Es war toll! Ich hoffe this scary thing will never happen to you. Amen.

I AM OFFICIALLY BACK !!

Well, nggak kerasa sudah di penghujung tahun 2013. Terhitung dari postingan terakhir, bulan Mei, at least sudah 7 bulan nggak nulis apapun kecuali tugas kuliah, catetan rapat selama kepanitiaan dan-- a secret letter. Sebenernya banyak banget pengalaman-pengalaman amazing selama 7 bulan ini yang pengen aku muntahin kesini. Mulai dari konflik tak berkesudahan sama diri sendiri yang tak kunjung membaik dan semakin bikin eneg kayak bau kentutnya Doni, kuliah yang semakin tua semesternya semakin datar banget kobaran semangatnya , rangkaian kepanitiaan yang bikin mental sekuat baja dan tubuh seringkih astor, sampe pengalaman falling in love sama temen kampus yang cukup menguras pikiran-- walaupun ternyata sad ending tapi lumayan lega karena nggak lagi dianggep lesbi sama temen-temen kampus karena kemana-mana sama Wika melulu.

Hell yeah, rasanya bakal bikin hati eneg dan mamel -kayak kentutnya Doni- kalau semua kejadian-kejadian tersebut diatas nggak diceritain satu persatu, so...we'll see :)
Semoga terjadi! Pasti terjadi kok sebenernya, tapi nggak tau kapan hehe!

Penasaran kan? Pengen banget kepoin aku kan? Jangan lupa follow @salsabilasasmi ya! :)

Jadi ceritanya, dalam beberapa bulan ini aku udah emmm..sekitar tiga kali mimpi ular.
Apa kabar anda yang di Malaysia? 

Instruksi pertama yang harus kalian lakukan setelah membaca kalimat diatas adalah tetap menjaga pikiran agar tetap tenang terkendali tanpa sedikitpun tercemari oleh unsur binal, kemudian minum setengah galon air tajin agar peredaran darah tetap lancar, lalu taburi wajah dengan wijen secukupnya.
Gara-gara keseringan nonton video song covernya Walk Off The Earth, dan tergila-gila oleh kejeniusan si Gianni Luminati dalam bermain musik, pada suatu malam, 5 menit setelah selesai pipis, aku mendapat ilham untuk belajar bermain gitar. Kenapa gitar? Kenapa nggak seruling? Kenapa nggak kendang kempul? Karena yang available di rumah cuma gitar. Kenapa nggak keyboard? Karena keyboard di rumahku sudah menjadi separuh jiwanya bapak.